Saying Goodbye…

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Babes, Feb. 2004, age 19

My precious little, petite and absolutely gorgeous kitty who was nearly 20, if not 20, passed away this morning. She started a slow decline in health back in August of last year — and even though her normalcies disappeared, she still seemed interested in living.

As of two weeks ago, she was unable to walk anymore and my parents tended to her 24/7. In an odd twist, she seemed to enjoyed the attention and thrive in an unexplainable way (if we sense any different, we would have ended it then). Every time my parents would pick her up there was a contentment that filled the room like nothing we’d ever seen before. She’d purr, eat, drink — all in the arms of people she knew loved her. It was almost as if this was “her” time.

We had hoped her heart would give out and she’d just drift off in her sleep but unforuntately, she wasn’t that lucky. Last night, she had a seizure and lost all control of her muscles and we think she wanted it to end. She expressed for the first time serious frustration — not pain but frustration and perhaps some confusion. She lashed out and bit anything she could but not us –to express her emotion. She told us without words that she had had enough.

We feel we honored her wishes as painful as it was to say good-bye. The vet says she most likely had a brain tumor that was taking away her control.

I’ve had Babes since I was 16 or 17 years old — nearly half of my life. My friend dropped her off at my house when I was still in high school hoping we’d take her — and of course we did. She was the size of a tea-cup — taken away from her mother way too young. It was heart-breaking. Babes took years to warm up to being held and loved — and it was like the last few months of her life — she made up for it. All she wanted was constantly love, attention and to be held — and she was.

When I went off to college, Babes and I were really close. We’d snuggle and nuzzle every day. We had a routine. I would lay down on my back, pick her up and suspend her over me. Then I’d rub my nose and face all over hers and she’d purr up a storm. She began to love it — but when I moved out she never forgave me. Ever. She always held a grudge against me for abandoning her — much like she must of thought her mother did. When I got married, I took her with me only to be strongly informed that option was not viable. She was miserable and made it known. She wanted to live at home — the only home she had ever known with or without me.

My heart is aching, and I am without words to describe my loss. I think she welcomed the relief of death, and yet that relief leaves such a huge void in my life, an absence, a cold, a chill — the unknown. Where did my sweet little soul go?

I dread going over to my parents house to feel it all the more… For the past year, she would lift her head to greet me as I walk in the door as she laid all snuggled in her bed. The thought that I will no longer see her makes me want to cry out in pain. Life can be so cruel and unfair. Everyday seems like a continual promise for tomorrow when the reality is — it’s not.

I love you my little sweet spirit. I love you for everything you were: strong, enduring, wise, intelligent, picky, persnickety, fiesty, and yet all at the same time, loving.

Thank you for gracing our lives with your beauty.

We are going to miss you more than words could ever express. I hope you are in a much better place…and I hope that one day we get to be close again…

If you have a pet, please kiss it for me in Babe’s honor…please?

PAX’s Lie Detector Show Review

Tuesday night I watched my second episode of Lie Detector which was a re-run of the first episode of the show which aired back in March. I had not seen this episode before. I disagree with two of the results found by polygraph. I concur with one.

Guest #1
The first person on the show was Robert Smitty. He donated a kidney to a psychologist who was legally advertising on the web to find a donor. Donors are not allowed to profit according to U.S. law. The big question at hand is did he profit or intend to profit from the donation of his kidney.

Smitty spoke that he donated a kidney to do good by another person. At first I believed him. He seemed sincere but as Smitty continued to speak, I got two twinges for reasons I am unable explain. They were just pangs of emotion — a lack of trust that welled up inside me, and I started to have my doubts about the guy.

In the end, I suspected Robert Smitty was going to fail the lie detector test for reasons I couldn’t explain– and he did.

After taking the test and being confronted that he failed, Smitty of course denied that he had anything but the truest intentions.

But then he hinted that he had some encounters with people who posed as donor recipients when in fact they were reporters. He said there was some “banter” between them and the reporter was fishing for a story. You are left with the feeling Smitty wasn’t above board in these dealings though nothing ever materialized from them.

As the story goes on, I feel that Smitty wanted the world to believe he donated his kidney to the psychologist because he was a kind man.

I believe Smitty knew that he wasn’t going to profit from the psychologist directly when he agreed to do it, but he didn’t discount the fact that he could profit from it in other ways. At the very end, Smitty reveals he has a ghost writer who is going to write his story.

So, did Smitty get illegal money from the donation — I don’t believe so. That was the point he was trying to make but failed to accurately convey through the lie-detector test.

Will he profit in the end — and was that his ultimate goal? I believe the answer is yes. He is trying to do so in every way he can conceive. The lie detector sniffed him out.

Guest #2
The second guest was Bob Pagani. He worked at Yankee Stadium between 1971 -1979. He worked at the stadium the year a bronze bust of Mickey Mantle was mounted and displayed at the stadium. He also worked at the stadium when that exact bust was stolen.

Oddly, sometimes thereafter these events, Pagani happened to find a bust of Mickey Mantle at a flea market for $75.00, bought it and stashed it away. He states that it “looked like what I saw at Yankee Stadium” but he makes no mention that he ever questioned its authenticity.

Yeah right.

After Mickey Mantle died, Pagani says he decided he was going to sell it. He called around to a Hall-of-Fame dealer and the dealer supposedly told him the bust he described on the phone could be worth some $30,000. Bob seemed happy — $30,000!

I guess it still didn’t dawn on Bob that this might be the stolen bust. Hmm….

Bob then says some guy called him up wanting to buy it. So with that, Bob flies out of town to meet this guy and agrees to take $25,000 cash on the spot. He grabs the cash, leave the bust and tries to run (he used the word “run”) –but the FBI nabbed him and he is now a convicted felon.

He swears he is innocent. He is hoping for a Presidential pardon.

Bob comes on the show because he wants people to know that he was honest. With that I guess that means, he wants us to believe he did not know the bust he had was the one that was stolen. He takes the polygraph and passes.

He passes.

Personally, I don’t believe Bob. I have to wonder if perhaps he studied polygraph machines and manipulated this one. Something isn’t right here. I do not agree with the polygraph finding.

Guest #3
And last guest on the show was Paula Jones, the administrative assistant who accused then Governor Bill Clinton of sexually harassing her back in 1991. Do you remember her?

She says she was working a convention when the Governor’s body guard, a state trooper, tells her that Mr. Clinton would like to see her in his hotel room. She says she was excited to meet the Governor so she happily went up to his room. She says the door was ajar. She walks in, they have small talk, and he pulls his pants down, exposes himself and asks for favors.

She says she left at once and said she told Mr. Clinton she wasn’t that kind of girl. She says when she left Mr. Clinton said , “You’re a smart girl. Let’s leave this between ourselves.”

I believe Mr. Clinton did say she was a smart girl and to keep the situation just between the two of them. That’s true. Very true. I believe that Mr. Clinton did expose himself to her as she says too. She is honest when she says that.

Paula Jones passes the lie detector.

But what I don’t believe is that Paula is telling the whole story. There is more here than she is letting on. She did some other things…things she doesn’t want to discuss. At least, that is my belief. Here is why…

When Paul Jones says after she left the hotel room where Mr. Clinton was, “I proceeded to go out the door and when I walked past Andy Ferguson, he had a smirk on his face and I flew right past him.”

She continues, “I was scared. I thought someone was going to come after me. I thought honestly, maybe I was video-taped in the room or something.”

Huh?

Excuse me? What did you say???

Why would you be AFRAID you were video taped if you were victimized???

Wouldn’t a video camera be the biggest and best proof you could have asked for?? If there was a video recording of the event, wouldn’t it have been relief for herif she was telling the truth???

I find it so ironic that 14 years later when she is recounting her story, she still talks about her fear of a video camera in Mr. Clinton’s room as she is running out. That concern was very powerful to recount all these years later…because it is the truth.

Want to tell us the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth, Ms. Jones? While you passed the lie detector that Mr. Clinton did expose himself… I think you know a lot more than you are willing to admit.

I wonder what Paula Jones is hiding… don’t you?? I do not agree with the final results of the lie detector. Because there weren’t enough questions asked, we didn’t get to the true heart of this matter.

Anna Ayala’s son: Reading between the lines

Case Summary:
Anna Ayala claimed to have found a finger tip in her chili that she was served at Wendy’s fast food restaurant.
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I had a horrible time finding good footage of Anna Ayala! Or, if I did find some (as you provided some links below), the footage was too small to see anything close enough.

However, this morning, I searched and found a video of the woman’s son speaking with the Las Vegas CBS news crew and I can tell you — I don’t believe her son — at all. He had a horrible time talking to a reporter. I believe a son wouldn’t act the way he did if his mother was telling the truth. He would have acted totally different.

Watch the video here. Click on Ayala has a history of filing lawsuits.

Watch as the reporter questions her son about three-quarters through the video. The reporter says, “A lot of people go through life with no lawsuits. Your mom and your family have been involved with several lawsuits the last several years.”

Ayala’s son says, “Yeah. Yeah. A lot of them have been car crashes and stuff like that.”

Watch how her son swallows after saying that, turns his head and looks down. You can tell he feels very awkward, and insecure. I certainly don’t believe one thing this young man is saying. Another indication is that he swallows rather awkwardly. This combined with other factors hints at the sincerity of what is being said.

The reporter goes on to ask if he thinks it is weird that his family has been involved in lawsuits more than the average family.

Ayala’s son replies, “Yeah. Sometimes we have a little bad luck here and then.”

As he talks, he is practically quivering!! He is struggling to find words that should come to him naturally.

Seeing the footage of him, I believe Ayala will be found to be involved in getting that finger into the bowl of chili.

Looking for Video Footage

I’m currently unable to find any video footage of Anna Ayala, a 39-year-old woman from Las Vegas who reportedly found a human finger tip(s) in her chili.

I’d like to listen to this woman speak as I hear the police got a warrant to search her home.

I want to see if I think she is being honest or not. If you can help me, please post a link where I can find a video of her. Thanks!

Oprah’s Lying Guest…

gets four months in jail for admitting to scamming her mother-in-law out of $960 on on the Oprah show. It looks like things could get much worse as well.

“The Department of Children & Families is investigating Gentry’s televised statement March 1 that she lied about her sick 2-month-old daughter and allowed doctors to perform an unnecessary spinal tap.” Court TV

Here is my post of Lisa Gentry’s visit on Oprah here.